Emotions run away with a CRAZY day

I have so many insecurities and feel I am not worthy of befriending people because of their place in the community, but would like nothing more than their friendship. This is especially how I feel at the moment, I find it so hard to make friends. Justin and I are one. We don't do things without each other, we don't drink, we don't smoke and we don't watch sport. Justin and I have been together since we were 14 and have always been one unit. He has been my carer for 4years now and is happy to sit with the ladies to chat. But is just as happy to sit with the blokes too. It is really hard cos' people err because Justin doesn't drink beer. God! We really don't care if people drink, we both probably know more about beer, wine and spirits than the average person, BUT, we prefer Coke or OJ. We always have cold Beer, wine in the fridge, cider and rum. We love nothing more than to have friends over for a good night. But we find it hard because friends that we do know have their own groups and already do their own social thing.

Don't get me wrong, we have heaps of friends, but they aren't the type to extend an invite. I feel that I am constantly saying "drop on by for a coffee" or "I'm always home if you feel like dropping in" and would dearly love someone to say... "same goes if you want to visit"

I am always worried that I come across desperate or weird. I was just feeling a bit better about holding a conversation with Michelle Davis the school principle, as in the past I get really nervous and tend to have what I call Verbal Diarrhea. I always try to relax and say the right thing, so I don't come across as crazy..... Any way, I was driving down the road yesterday and I wave at Michelle, as she was walking up the road, and I always go around the corner cutting into the bike lane a bit (safely)... anyway just around the bend I saw her two littlies riding their bikes up the road. I was only going slow and was nowhere near where the kids were, but I felt all of a sudden that she might have thought that I was careless and crazy, "cutting the corner like that" So any way that is my state of mind at the moment and feel better now that I have it off my chest.......

Well I'm signing off, untill I have my next emotional blah blah blah

Happy New Year to All

Just a quick post, to wish everybody a Happy New Year. I made a resolution that...I will strive t0 be fit and healthy. I know that I will cope allot better in almost everything that I do. It is just so damn hard to avoid all the comfort foods, and exercise!!! It is so damn hot and humid here, the only time you would be able to exercise is from about midnight to about 3am. But I will try...? The Photos are of the Boys with Justin at a Cross Country, and the top photo is of the Quad Bike that my Brother and Mum & Dad bought for Drew and Brayden for Christmas. What a great idea!!!! They are constantly nagging to go for a ride. And the last photo is of the Table Decorations I hand made, Bon bons, these had a personalised joke for each person and a piece of jewelry (bookmark or keyring etc), gold star confetti, Place settings, Napkin Rings, Rum balls with personal tag. We had about 18 people, and we did cold meat and salad, it was too hot for anything else. It was a great day!! I'd better go and pick up Drew, he rode to Mum and Dads on his Quad... See ya for Now!!!